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3/05/24;
war is over! have finally submitted the first draft of my 4u major work. it's not very good, and i had to cut some content
in order to finish it on time, but it is submitted and i can move on to my next big task - history extension. it's definitely
going to be a challenge, but i'm hoping to finish it tonight.
it's funny, i'm actually enjoying my studies quite a bit at the moment. modern history, which has plagued me since i began, is much better than expected in terms of performance, so i'm currently just enjoying the work - we're looking at the second indochina war (aka the vietnam war), and it's fascinating! france's fuckups in the first indochina war are frankly hilarious - don't know why you'd put your base in a valley when you're up against guerilla fghters and then make your strategy air-based when it's the rainy season and it's going to be a nightmare to get supplies in. i've never been in any war though, so what do i know?
it's funny, i'm actually enjoying my studies quite a bit at the moment. modern history, which has plagued me since i began, is much better than expected in terms of performance, so i'm currently just enjoying the work - we're looking at the second indochina war (aka the vietnam war), and it's fascinating! france's fuckups in the first indochina war are frankly hilarious - don't know why you'd put your base in a valley when you're up against guerilla fghters and then make your strategy air-based when it's the rainy season and it's going to be a nightmare to get supplies in. i've never been in any war though, so what do i know?
28/04/24;
am awfully stressed over the return to school - have been shockingly unproductive over the holidays. i think i've reverted
to perfectionism in the face of a major work, and combining that with a fundamental laziness i'm fighting to rid myself of,
the word count for my major works have remained painfully low. will have to cram-write over the next two days - not something
i'm looking forward to.
additionally, i also have to grind away on my QG. i really love the project as a whole - the level of self-growth and just maturing out of a naive blankness has been amazing - but some of the tasks do feel a little busywork-y. i've picked the advocacy T3 for the sake of doing something meaningfully challenging, but the make a resource and contact the media falls into a category of activism i hate - the vanity project. if all you're doing is starting a podcast or making a website, it's not meaningful activism - you need to mechanistically engage with the centres of power. websites and social media can be tools for doing that (ie. BDS, where developing conscious awareness is necessary to build a powerful boycott) but they're not sufficient in and of themselves. i'll see if i can morph the language into doing something that's a little more practical - maybe like a fundraising thing?
whilst i haven't been being productive, what i have been doing is binge-listening to episodes of The Magnus Archives - which is just so good. i got recommended it by someone at bushcraft class, and it took me so long to get to start it (busy life), but now i have the downtime it's been awesome. some of the episodes can be a bit of a miss, but the ones where they hit on a fear (or just some really good phrasing or imagery) hit so hard. i just listened to ep 66 - the woman narrating does so in such a realistic way, where you can tell they did their research, but simultaneously crafts this horrifying experience with such strong descrption - hard to do in an audio medium. hopefully i can synthesise tma with my major work and get away with listening to podcasts while i write - perks of doing a MW on horror and hauntings!
additionally, i also have to grind away on my QG. i really love the project as a whole - the level of self-growth and just maturing out of a naive blankness has been amazing - but some of the tasks do feel a little busywork-y. i've picked the advocacy T3 for the sake of doing something meaningfully challenging, but the make a resource and contact the media falls into a category of activism i hate - the vanity project. if all you're doing is starting a podcast or making a website, it's not meaningful activism - you need to mechanistically engage with the centres of power. websites and social media can be tools for doing that (ie. BDS, where developing conscious awareness is necessary to build a powerful boycott) but they're not sufficient in and of themselves. i'll see if i can morph the language into doing something that's a little more practical - maybe like a fundraising thing?
whilst i haven't been being productive, what i have been doing is binge-listening to episodes of The Magnus Archives - which is just so good. i got recommended it by someone at bushcraft class, and it took me so long to get to start it (busy life), but now i have the downtime it's been awesome. some of the episodes can be a bit of a miss, but the ones where they hit on a fear (or just some really good phrasing or imagery) hit so hard. i just listened to ep 66 - the woman narrating does so in such a realistic way, where you can tell they did their research, but simultaneously crafts this horrifying experience with such strong descrption - hard to do in an audio medium. hopefully i can synthesise tma with my major work and get away with listening to podcasts while i write - perks of doing a MW on horror and hauntings!